Pack It Up

I'm slowly packing stuff away, and my room looks like it's been turned upside down, with everything scattered all over the floor and boxes and bags everywhere. I took the picture above just before I started taking photographs down so I can pack them away to be shipped home. 

It's been a busy December, and I'm finding myself clinging to the days, willing time to stretch so that it will accommodate my reluctance to leave. Sure, I've got a lot to look forward to back in Malaysia, but for almost a year, this place has been my home. The people here are home too - I must be one of the luckiest people alive to have friends like these here with me, and they've been the best adopted family anybody could ask for. 

I just sent off my boxes this morning, so that's one thing less to worry about. The week's been eventful, but I'm sure the last of the gang here in Adelaide has met up for the last time, all of us together on our own, no parents around. Next week marks the arrival of a lot of families, and everyone will be busy with their relatives. 

I'm not counting down the days. Just taking things one day at a time.

Next Chapter

Today feels relatively normal, all things considered.

I woke up at a reasonable hour (for me, that means 8 in the morning - and I only snoozed for half an hour instead of an hour and a half) and checked the BB from my bed. Got up, showered, had breakfast. Then I went back into my room and this is where it stops being your ordinary day, because I had to repack my luggage bag for the fourth time because my parents said I was bringing too many things. :'c

I'm finally all packed and just waiting around for the time to leave, pretty much. It hasn't sunk in yet. This time tomorrow, I'll be in Adelaide, and I won't be seeing this bedroom of mine for another ten and a half months. 

No pictures today unfortunately. My card reader has been packed away. So the next update I'll make, I'll be in Aussie-Land! :D

Two bottles of stars

It's not the 2nd anymore ... just realised that it's past midnight. Doesn't matter though because it just means another day has passed since that day a year ago. It's been an interesting year, learning new things about both you and myself, and I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.

There's a lot of things I wanted to blog about, but it's been a truly busy week. I just wanted to note this down in blog history. I'm happy for the year we've had, ups and downs, and everything in between. We've been friends much longer than this ... almost two years now. 

I'm just really really happy. :3

Les comptage des etoiles.

A moment

Ten days into 2011 and I think I'm ready to blog here again.

Hello, world.

I haven't had all that much motivation to blog, even though life has been eventful. Mostly because the things I want to say would be better off in my private journal and also because I've found a new hangout spot. Hehe. Not gonna say it here though. If you find it, good for you. :p

I tried writing a recap post on everything that happened in 2010 in my private journal, but I have to be honest, it was overwhelming. I got overemotional about it after 4 paragraphs then I gave up writing it. I guess some things are better left in the past.

Let's just say that the same way 2009 felt like one of the best years of my life, 2010 seems to have managed to become one of my least favoured. It was complicated, and I was fighting myself throughout the whole year about everything in my life, and the inside of my head wasn't a nice place to be at all. But despite the downs, it had its fair share of ups. All of my friends who stuck by me, all you wonderful people who were there to slap some sense back into me every time I started to go a little insane. You guys are amazing. I'm not gonna mention names - all of you know who you are.

And 2010 had a good ending. It felt like a good way to wrap up everything that had happened. I'm happy. :) You know what I mean. I'm hoping to start posting regularly again soon. So much to tell ... I've started working for one thing. Haha. Life's taken a total 360 since semester ended.

So here's to the new year, 2011. I don't expect you to be easy, but I want to be able to enjoy myself while I'm at it.

Drove for miles and miles

Dear Self.

What the hell are you doing staring out of the rear view mirror, look ahead!

-__-; Adoi.

I have this huge urge to get my mind wiped and then having data inputted back in manually out of context so that maybe things will make more sense.

Currently listening to 'She's Got You High' by Mumm-Ra.

I need more How I Met Your Mother.

I also need to get my butt back onto slaving over assignments.

I also want need a Volkswagen CrossPolo.

The latter can wait for a while though.

Où est-tu

--> sassygayfriendmeme.tumblr.com

That is the plan, Sassy Gay Friend.

That's always the plan.

I had an epic song recommendation thing going on at my FB status so now I'm slowly sifting through all the songs and choosing what I want for my playlist. And I cleaned up my iTunes so that I won't find myself skipping over so many songs I don't feel like listening to anymore.

Went to MPH Merdeka Sale and got a pretty good haul. I'm happy. Even bought a Malay novel, haha. That's something.

I am looking for my platypus keychain. Can't find it.

I think it's time to find a new one, but everything in the market is just so ... blegh. I'm picky, can't help it. *cough* Secretly wanting this keychain to be my totem, that's why so picky *cough*.

University is being challenging and Ramadhan's almost over. Exhausted, physically, mentally, emotionally. I've gotten all my Raya stuff already so I'm happy for that.

--> lovequotesrus.tumblr.com

Why yes, I have taken to mentioning my image sources.

Blame assignments.

So. If I had no fear, I would try ... so many many things. I'd play sports I'd never thought of playing, go where risks are part of the thrill.

I'd say things to people.

What would you try?

Chase thunder

I love this song right now.

Can I just say how amazing it is that just by finding one person to tell things to, everything changes. The sky is brighter, the load is lighter and I've been walking around with this ridiculously high level of optimism.

That can't be practical, but there you go.

Thank you for listening to me. Why didn't I do this sooner.

In the event of that, I think I'm done with lingering.

It's been so long and the whole thing resurfacing just brought so many things back, y'know? And I realised that I had never really given myself a proper closure to it. I won't call what's happened now closure per se but this is what I needed: confirmation. The situation's changed and now I can confirm it. And I'm OK. :)

On another note, I don't want to care about a certain something right now.

There are so many other beautiful things to focus on.

I'll worry about it if it comes up.

Vague post is vague.

Ps. Drove the freaking GTI to freaking campus. I am freaking high.

An idea

My FB and Twitter accounts are in French.

Haha. :D

Hoping this will help expand mon vocabulaire.

First two weeks of sem 2!

I haven't been using Perry that often I'm afraid so no sem 2 pictures. There are some photos in Macaroni but dang am I lazy to transfer at the moment. So, pic-less post today!

What have I been doing?

Well I watched Inception twice, once with Acu and Mira and a second time with Sammie and Nick. And I've been like. Obsessed. And fangirling (Oh Arthur you beautiful thing in a three-piece suit) and other excited happy things. There's nothing quite like being a fangirl in a beautifully written fandom. Haha.

And I finally got to go rock-climbing omg. It was fun.

And there have been uni stuff to do which I have been completely procrastinating. Argh. Starting to get back into the groove though. Slowly does it. I think I have an idea for the IDM video already ... it hit me out of nowhere last night and it's been sitting right in my face.

Other than that I've been doing a lot of thinking.

Thinking complicates things though so I guess I should start going with the flow like Nad says. Instead of clinging to an Idea all the time, just go with the wind. I have no idea where the wind will take me though and I'll be honest and say that I'm worried about that.

What's the most resilient parasite?

Oh well.

A bientot.

Homecoming

The past two weeks have really been something.

Last week Atuk went for an angiogram which went well, Alhamduilllah. He says that he's not as easily tired as he once was so that's awesome. I love you Atuk. :)

And then a couple of days ago Spyro broke his tail so we had to send him for surgey. Poor baby lost two inches of his beautiful tail. Here he is with his new pretty satellite dish collar. He's fine now, albeit a little groggy and weak from a jab the vet gave him.

I have three days left to the holidays.

I think I'm just going to take it easy. No epic war-on-boredom plans, no deliberate jumps into activity. If things happen, they'll happen. I have to teach myself to accept that not everything we plan will come through ... sometimes Allah has a different plan for us. :)

Looking down the ladder

I was watching Fellowship of the Ring and I realised how it's been almost ten years since it first premiered. Can you believe that? It's been almost a decade since I finished reading the trilogy and all the other books I had gotten myself into. It's been such a long time.

I was delighted to see that the movie was dripping with dramatic epicness. I mean ... wow. Some of it is horribly cheesy but it works so well and damn, Frodo is such a damsel in distress. Blegh. I used to have a crush on him, hehe. Pretty blue eyes.

I'm in the midst of rearranging a lot of stuff in my mind. One thing I'd like to change is my lack of drawing, writing and reading.

Maybe I should go offline more often.

Hahahahhaaha.

Moar plz

O rly.

This makes me feel like watching the Keira Knightley movie again. I haven't watched it yet this year. I've seen it once every year ever since it came out and I have yet to grow tired of it.

Been pleasantly busy the past week, couldn't be happier. The war I have waged against boredom is still ongoing ... sometimes I emerge victorious, la championne de la bataille. Other times, I sink to a shameful defeat. But hey, I may have lost a few battles but the war's not over. ;)

Today in particular was good because of 3 things.

One being productivity!

The second being that I have achieved my personal goal of sitting in every chair in LT3. Fo realz.

The third being that Jov and I found a place which sells bubble tea near campus.

I am at the moment a very content human being.

Messages

Here're some things I'm thinking, directed at certain people.

1. You've only been gone a few days and I miss you. :/

2. I'm disappointed, that's all.

3. It's so hard to look at you now. I'm actually angry.

4. I don't talk to you as often as I used to. I don't know what happened.

5. I'm glad we got to meet up again. :)

6. Do you have any idea where we're standing? Cause I don't.

7. I want to talk to you, but I don't know how to initiate the conversation.

8. Stop all this self-pity. Tell me straight out please.

And most importantly, to the most important person:

Always have a back-up plan.

Ps. Siapa yang terasa, it could be directed at you. Or maybe it isn't. You'll never know.

Semaine deux

I think it's time for a holiday update!

And blurry cat photo is blurry. Very aware if that.

Week One of holidays was ... actually sort of depressing. But emoboy tendencies aside, I got to watch A-Team and eat durian mochi, which by itself chases most troubles away. I also got to eat real durian, which also chases most troubles away. Except for bad breath, but hey that's what breathmints are for.

Week Two is so far miles better than Week One. It's been interesting. :)

So yeah, things I planned to do at the beginning of these hols:

1) Paint shoes

2) Make DIY kit

3) Get a part-time job

4) Put together Book of Motivation

5) Read books

6) Short film

7) Sleepover

8) Morning swims

9) Sky Trex

10) Paintball

11) Rock-climbing

12) Draw portraits

13) Picnic

14) Learn at least one guitar song

15) Make at least one piano cover

16) Shoot zombies

That's all I've got so far. Must get my butt into gear.

Lit up the world

Things I want to do during the soon-to-come holidays:

1) Paint at least one pair of shoes.

2) Finish my DIY frame kit.

3) Get a part time job during July.

4) Put together a Book of Motivation.

5) Finish reading my untouched stack of books.

6) Work on a short film competition entry.

I'll update this as the ideas pour in.

I'm looking forward to this long weekend! :B

Through the tunnel

Saw this on PostSecret today!

Call it silly but I'm so happy to know that somebody else in the world does this too.
<3
Life is being interesting, by the way.
Wouldn't have it any other way.
I wonder if my tunnel wishes will come true this year?

Sneaky ninja

So today was interesting.
Got an inspirational talk in the morning.
Round two of ... CRR practice after that.
Had CCS tutorial ...
Spaghetti for lunch thanks to Fyra. :)
A very eventful EC tutorial.
Saw some sneaky ninja action.
Performed some not so sneaky running across a roof (!).
Got stuck.
Parkour!Fail.

Got home and ... I honestly don't know what I'm doing right and what I'm doing wrong. What's the right thing to do? Do I do what I want to do or what I should do so that other people don't feel bad?

I'm having issues with being myself at the moment.

Why is the world so damn ambiguous?

No swimming

Started at a magical new campus today!
Filled with zombie cows and krakens and unicorns and mermaids and-
Oh wait, that was my old assumption.
Oops. :p
Anyway started the day with a long drive. Jam, baby.

View from the carpark. I call it the Big Carpark.
I call the other carpark the Cowfield. Last time I came here, there were cows there but now there are just cars. We heard a cow mooing in the distance while walking to the buildings. So nice, the cow welcoming us! :D

We heard about the packed cafeteria and overpriced food.
So Sha made some baguettes for our lunch!
Thanks Sha. <3
We sat at the amphitheater and people-watched while chowing down.

The magical Lake!
No fishing.
Jov is sad.

So yeah, Day One.
We were like schoolkids on first day of school. I was more of a tourist with my camera (I have named it Perry, like the Platypus).
Looking forward to moar awesome timez.

April watch

Starting a monthly movie dump. :)

When In Rome
Watched this with Sha, Sammie, Fyra and Joe.
The basic premise is that a workaholic girl scoops up some coins from that wishing fountain place (can't remember the name sorry) where people wish for love and ends up being hounded by a pack of males who have suddenly fallen in love with her. She has to decide whether or not the one she really loves is reciprocating because of his coin in the fountain or genuine love for her.
Overall, I have to say that it was very bleh.
Plot was mildly entertaining but so many things were rushed through. Subplots and the like. Also, some stuff was just so unnecesary and it was obvious they were setting things up for cheap laughs. The beginning of the movie made me cringe with shame - the editting needs a lot of work, they kept cutting away at strange moments and the extras' acting left much to be desired. The only thing I liked about the whole thing was watching Josh Duhamel (he's nice to look at) make a klutz of himself. It helps that Kirsten Bell is nice to watch too, but her character was so bland. Couldn't connect with her, and I hate her friends. I want to slap them all. Haha.
Watch it if you're bored. Really really bored and there's nothing else to watch or do.

Kick-Ass
Watched this with Nad, Hannah and Aidil.
Superhero parody with a twist. Dave is your average, nerdy highschool boy with a comic book obsession. He decides to don a costume ... well, just because he can. After he's filmed during a fight with a bunch of thugs and his name is spread across the Interwebs, his fame skyrockets and some other 'heroes' start to sprout up, and that's when the plot starts to hit rollercoaster.
This movie. Is violent. Very violent.
I was a wuss and watched most of it from behind my fingers.
I enjoyed this one mostly because it's so deliciously badass. Dave is adorable and naive, running through the night with his sticks and hitting people, hoping they will behave. Of course, he soon gets himself into deep trouble, getting caught up with the mafia and a few vengeful vigilantes. Helps that he's pretty. The acting was fun, from Dave to the mindblowing Hitgirl (she will blow your mind. And make parents faint.). The action sequences are insane, and towards the end you'll have to suspend disbelief a little. The comedy is dark in some points, slapstick in others. There're some nice comic cliche references that made me smile.
Watch if you don't mind the gore. And if you're particularly fond of superhero movies. :)

How to Train Your Dragon

Watched this with Nad.
I walked into this one without that much on the expectation side. I'd seen lots of positive response around Deviantart, so I thought I'd give it a shot. In a land of Vikings (Berk) Hiccup is the odd one out, stringy and unathletic. Basically, not much of a Viking. He dreams of killing a dragon and impressing his father. Instead, he ends up friends with one (Toothless).
What can I say? I love this movie. I lovelovelovelovelove it.
Sounds like your typical kid's movie right? Yeah it sure does. But it isn't all that typical. You have to watch it to understand ... everything is so gorgeous, the animation, the SOUNDTRACK (swoons) , the ENDING. I teared up at the end. Toothless is the most adorable dragon I've ever seen in my life, he reminds me of Zed. Yes, Zed the kitten. Half the time I was squeaking to myself and wanting to give the thing a huge hug. The only thing I didn't like about the movie was how all the younger generation Vikings had American accents while their parents were sporting Scottish. What's up with that? Is acquiring a Scottish accent part of becoming an adult or something? Argh accent fail.
Watch it. Just watch it. Then download the soundtrack. And listen to it on repeat. Ahhh.

The seventh day

Keys to the Kingdom series by Garth Nix.
I finished Lord Sunday last night at 1.30 a.m.
;(

If I'm right, I started reading these books in Form 4.
At the moment, it's the very last fantasy book series that I was still hanging on too.
I kinda stopped starting on series fantasy when I finished school. No time.
And now I've finished it.
Hmm feels like the end of an age seriously. :/

The ending was incredible. I cried a little. Haha.
I saw some of it coming, but a lot of it was unexpected.
Reminds me a bit of the Pendragon ending, but unlike MacHale, Nix managed to tie it up without making me freaking confused. Sorry MacHale, I loved Pendragon but the ending was pure WTF.

Also? Amazing thing?
The final page got me shipping a ... brand new couple.
That in itself is a feat, ladies and gentlemen. Shipping on the last page!
Man I want to re-read the series now.

Eve

I have roughly two hours left before I turn 19.

Around this time as a thirteen year old, I was ridiculously excited.
Why?
In my mind, turning 14 is the age where celebrities are made. Turning 14 was my last shot at being the youngest published author. Turning 14 meant that I was at the right age to find a magical object which will whisk me to another dimension where I will find adventure and romance along with adorable talking animals.

None of that happened but heck, I can dream right?

I've lost all hope of being the youngest published author ever and well, I can forget about going to a magical realm behind a wardrobe door. But my writing dreams have changed into dreams of drawing my own webcomic, and anyway I can have all the adventures I ever wanted just by living. :) Just ... minus the talking animals.

I had thoughts of making this a long sentimental post but ...
Nah.
I didn't want to turn 19 so fast.
But how do you fight the inevitable?
So long 18, you had your good and bad times.
I enjoyed you.

Hey there, 19.
Show me a good time then.
I dare you.
:)